I cried and cried all day

Well, so much for blogging about my bariatric story. I got a call from Captain Johnson yesterday, and they aren't going to do my surgery. I guess because I am so healthy I dont quailify. I would have to gain about 20 more pounds. UGH!!! Are you freaking kidding me? Seriously??? I have spent the last 6 weeks going to appointment after appointment, and test after test, for them to say "sorry, but we cant do it". They knew my history and my weight before all of this. Why didn't they just say no upfront? I got the call about 3pm yesterday. I pretty much cried till bedtime. I am so disappointed. I thought something good was going to finally happen to me. My life has been filled with disappointments, I should be used to it. But I swore January 1st, that this was going to be MY year, that good things were going to happen for me. So far we are a quarter of a way into the year and it has SUCKED. So what to do from here?
To be continued.............