Its been a while

Well it's been a little over a week since I last wrote. My mood is quite different now. I was on cloud nine when I got my date, but can't say my emotions are quite the same.
Its a little over two weeks until my surgery date. I am filled with anxiety, nervousness, and freaking out just a bit. I go for my pre-op appointment tomorrow. They told me to plan to be there all day. Hmmm, I wonder what they need to do that would take all day????? Guess I will find out in the morning.
So, the support for me has been overwhelming. I think most of my friends are on board with me. For those who know me well, know all the pain that I have been in, and the crap I have had to deal with health wise! So even though some don't understand the surgery itself, I think they all get why it is important. I am sooooo ready to start feeling better. Others that I have talked to either online or at the support group meetings have encourage me with their own stories. Even the psychiatrist that I had to see talked about how her feet stopped hurting once she got most of the extra weight off. A day with less pain would be amazing.
So despite all the health issues, I have learned something recently. Since starting this, I am suppose to be keeping a journal....well this is MY journal! I learned that I actually am an emotional eater. I would have never thought of me to be so. But just this morning I had a "tiff" with a friend, and the first thing I did after crying was go to the kitchen. REALLY? Now that I am suppose to be staying "aware" of what and when I eat, I am taking notice of these types of things. CRAP! Well, lesson learned, and now I know to stay more aware of times I am upset or saddened.
So anyway, my date is still the 27th unless I learn something new tomorrow.
Check back tomorrow evening for updates after my appointment.
XOXO