I made on more trip to Wilford Hall Medical Center today. Its the last trip I will make before my surgery. WOW! I can't believe I am 48 hours away to the beginning of a new me. Emotions are still high, and probably will until I start doing my count down to sleepy time, (when the anesthesiologist puts me to sleep). I am scared (of surgery), I am nervous (that something will go wrong), worried (something bad will happen), and exicted (of my healthy new start on life). So when I say emotions are running high, there you have it! I can't even begin to tell you the things that have raced through my mind. Mostly the worried part. I can't help but worry mostly. I seriously don't want anything to happen to ME! What would that do to my family? I know I can't think like that, but I HAVE to. Crazy as this sounds, I have decided to write letters to my hubby and kids. I know it sounds extreme, but you just never know. I have to do it!!! It's for my piece of mind. So really that is where my mind is right now. AFTER surgery is over, I wake up healthy, THEN and ONLY THEN, will I start focusing on my future and the aftermath of the surgery itself.
So there you have it. Now.....I wait!
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I'm so happy for you!! It is so natural to worry, but Lisa, you will have so many praying for you! You are TOTALLY in God's hands and He will be there guiding the Doctors!! You are going to be just fine!! :)
ReplyDeleteWow Lisa! We have been apart for so long I didn't realize all the health issues you were having. I think you are so brave! I'm not sure I could do what you are doing. I too struggle with my weight, so I really admire what you are doing! I will be praying for you!!!!
ReplyDeleteLuv ya!
Diane
I understand alot of what you are talking about. As you know, I have been doing extensive exercise for the last 7 months. It hasn't been easy and this won't for you either. I am here for you ALL THE WAY!!! Love you (Laverne) and don't forget it. You are awesome and you are brave and you will do just fine.
ReplyDeleteYou will be foating on Prayer Clouds Thursday and one of those clouds will be mine.
God Bless you!!
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