Irony

Well I made it through graduation weekend. Graduation itself was great. We had a party/bbq on Saturday evening, and then said goodbye on Sunday to family that made it in for the weekend. We had a great time and the weekend was an overall success. Once again, I am a very proud mama of another high school graduate. But the awesome weekend paid its toll on my body. For the first time I really felt the affects of my surgery. I couldn't wait for the bedtime last night. I guess I had pushed a little harder than I should have. My tummy was a little tender, and kinda sore...like I had been doing sit ups or something. Not really pain though. I could just tell had pushed a little farther than what I should have.
I still have not done an official weigh in. The last time I weighed at the hospital was the day of my surgery. Before that day was my PRE-op appointment. That is, for me, my official starting weight. So I am curious to see how much weight I have lost since that day, May 12. That will be the 4 week mark from the day I started my pre-op liquid diet until now. I don't really feel any different, so I am just really anxious to see what the scales say. My nurse says because I am a "smaller" bariatric patient, that I may not lose those HUGE numbers that I am used to hearing about. She said the bigger you are, the bigger the numbers are in weight loss. I guess that makes sense.
So as I sit here typing I have the news on....The Today show to be exact. Ironically they are telling Al Rokers story of his Gastric Bypass journey. The ups and the downs, and how it (the surgery) is just a tool. You can...and WILL gain the weight back if you dont change yourself. This surgery isnt a permanent solution. Its a tool to give you a head start in changing the way you look at your health, the way you eat, the choices you make. The surgeon dosen't wave a magic wand over your body that allows you to stay thin forever. If that were the case I would have asked him to go ahead with 2 more wishes for wealth and power while he was doing his magic. =) Yeah, I know, I am a smart a**, heehee. But on a serious note, I have to remind myself daily that I could fall off the wagon any day, and all of this would have been for nothing. And daily I feel the need to remind people that this is NOT the easy way out. Walk in my shoes before casting judgment. I really feel through all of this I will come out a stronger person, physically as well as mentally. I am taking charge of my body, my mind, and my heart. 2010, is my year!!!