Friday, June 4, 2010

Brandon's graduation day.

Well its Friday, Brandon's graduation day, but also 1 week and 1 day post op. Things are going well. I do believe I am healing great, and no complications. Yesterday I had to run and pick up stuff for our BBQ on Saturday. I think I might have lifted something a tad bit to heavy for me. I felt a little "pull" feeling right under my rib cage. I woke up this morning a little tender. I really hope its nothing major. I have my 2 week post op check up next Wednesday. Of course if I feel uneasy about it or anything else, I will call Dr Fenton sooner.
So all the blogs I have read of other bariatric patience, different websites, books, etc; it seems so many people ask themselves "what have I done"? I haven't had that thought yet, not sure if I ever will. Yes its tough, but I am still hoping for the ultimate pay off. I want to run again. I want to play volleyball and badminton with my family. I am sick to death of just a little bit of activity hurting me. I know it won't be a "cure all", but when I was lighter, the pain wasn't as intense. I am hoping for that same out come with this. I am hoping when I get some of this extra weight off, I will have more control over my back and joints, and just feel normal again.
So, I have run into several people that I haven't seen since my surgery. They seem so surprised I am back to normal again. They have said things like "I cant wait to see your body in 6 months", or "you'll be one hot momma". I know my appearance will change, thats a given. But I almost get ticked....I mean, do they not care about how I will FEEL in 6 months???? I mean, no one likes being over weight, but I dont remember ever complaining about my appearance. But my back and hip was a daily complaint. Are people over looking the REAL reason people usually go thru a major surgery like this? I mean, usually its to get rid of health issues such as diabetes, heart problems, etc...and in my case to help me with my DJD and arthritis. I don't think most doctors would do it just for cosmetics reasons. I guess it makes me feel kinda shallow that some are focused on the appearance aspect of the outcome rather than how it should make me feel. And maybe I am just taking there opinions a little to personal. I know we live in a materical/cosmetic world. But it just goes to show who really knows me best. Hmmm.

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